Currently Listening The Last Kiss By Original Soundtrack see related

so i met a guy last week. he's really cute and sweet and funny and we have like everything in common. and since friday night, we've been going out. i'm so happy, i'm not used to actual 'nice guys'. i've got a good feeling about this one.

<3

Currently Listening Dying to Say This to You By The Sounds see related

ignore my past entries. i'm starting fresh.

i'm over mike. i'm over mat. i'm over all these guys that have came and gone into my life. it's all over and i'm happy.

things have been hectic and crazy, but in that sorta good excited way, if that makes any sense. i started school. senior year, i can't believe it, it hasn't hit me yet AT ALL. but its good, i really like it so far for once and i hope that doesn't change.

i've been thinking about someone from my past lately. that probably, no definitely, isn't a good thing considering everything i went through with this person, but he's kinda re-entered my life and i'm confused about what i might wanna do, but we'll see. and yes, it is an ex. but one from like 3 years ago, not the 2 above. haha.

um.. i think thats it right now. i'm at ann marie's and her and anna are waiting for me in her room so gotta go.

<3 you know.

a lot has changed since the last time i wrote. well me and him talked and because of him contacting me, we've been hanging out a lot and talking a lot again like we used to. right now were good friends again but who knows for the future. we just can't get back together right now. "not yet".. i don't know. he's on vacation for a couple more days, i miss him. i've been trying to be better about things like that whole situation for my own sake and the sake of my friends because i know their sick of it.

i feel really alone lately though. like deep down i know i'm not but my paranoia has been on high alert the past few days and that doesn't help things. i'm seriously thinking about taking my moms offer up and going for therapy. i used to and it worked really well.

i have to wake up at 10 and i know i won't be asleep till atleast 5. i'm so fucked.

schools on strike. supposed to go back next thursday but i doubt we will now for another week or two. who knows though, i'm not ready to go back yet though so hopefully we really are on strike.

that's pretty much it. i never know what to write in this anymore. i'm afraid of revealing too much.

the music thing isn't working: "where'd you go" by fort minor.. an appropriate song i think.

Currently Listening All The Stars And Boulevards By Augustana see related

so its been a while.

4am on a monday morning, i'm at ann maries of course. and i'm high. ha.

i haven't written just because i:

a- have been too busy / haven't been home

b- my computer has a virus

c- too much has gone on for me to write about and i can't even begin to put it into words

the only thing you need to know is that me and mike broke up. for no reason at all. we were literally perfect for eachother and i am not giving up on him. i want to get back together. i need him in my life. and he won't even talk to me right now. whatever. this past week has been one of the worst i've had in a LONG time. i have been and still am a complete wreck and i'm not afraid to admit that. i need to talk to him.

i have NO idea why but i'm obsessed with fergie's new song "london bridge".. haha seriously its on my myspace and its the ringtone on my cell phone.

i am one weird kid. ;)